From fitness to unfitness, rediscovery and beyond. This is my personal #BodyBeforeSkill journey and how it helped me to create this unique training method that helps you to find your way to a healthy approach to loving yourself - without giving up on yourself altogether.
NO PAIN, NO GAIN
After producing and shooting my second fitness training DVD series, INTENSITY Cheer Conditioning, I felt like had arrived at a fork in the road:
A) Pursue the pro fitness/trainer road to whatever was next, physically
B) Pursue the a more academic/research path to sports and fitness
At the time, I was also approaching the dreaded 30th Birthday milestone. This event left me somewhat a bit lost. The expiry date for “adulting” had approached and I was left to figure out what that meant for me. As much of a cliche as it can be, the episode of Friends "The One When They all Turn 30” couldn’t be closer to my reality.
Path A) didn't seem like the "grown-up" approach and experience had taught me that pursuing a more professional path in physical fitness meant upping the ante into cross-fit, body-building, yogi or an equally dedicated path. Neither of these options were appealing to me, as I have never been a fan of extreme mindsets, whichever they may be.
This left me feeling I had reached the end of the fitness road andI went down Path B) to research and write the book: Body Before Skill: Sports Performance for Cheerleading. Hooray, I had made a firm commitent to "adulting".
THE DOWNHILL JOURNEY
Two years later - 2016 - I moved to South Africa after spending 2 years travelling, researching, writing and developing our sports and fitness business in the USA. The irony? At this point, I was in the worst shape of my life. Perhaps not for the average Joe or Jane, but considering that my life revolved around the subject of fitness, my body was far from being at its peak.
My body had adapted to being a slob. For some reason, I thought adulthood meant that my days of being a fitness bunny were over. And if I couldn't be a fitness bunny, then what was the point of training at all?
At still only 57kg (125lbs) and 1’68 (5'6) I was still clocking up 25% percent body fat and barely able to get through a hike without huffing and puffing. Let's not even talk about my muscle density. Two years of travelling, contemplating adulthood and focusing on flexing the brain muscle left me looking and feeling like a mozzarella stick that had been left out in the sun for too long.
YOU JUST NEED TO LOVE YOURSELF
Even though I was proud of my other accomplishments, I felt horrendous in a bikini. I felt "deflated" and I couldn’t recognise myself anymore. People around me kept saying not to worry, it’s just part of “growing up”.
This created a problem: linking age and genetics as reason for decline is one of society's biggest failures. Looking back at this time, I can't even understand how I - as a fitness professional - couldn't see this.
“Accepting yourself as you are” was an emerging mantra trend that was emerging at the time and is still being reinforced today, to the detriment of our health. The pursuit of tolerance can take things a little too far. Accepting different body shapes, genetics and loving our uniqueness, yes. Yet accepting unhealthy habits is a far cry from "loving yourself".
Even though I’m fully on board with the concept of being kinder to yourself, working WITH your genetics, not against it and developing a kinder relationship to food and exercise -
the message can come across in a way that encourages people to be ok with being unhealthy.
IT'S YOUR BODY.
Whenever I opened up to friends or family, the response was unanimous: “but you look great! People would kill for your body” - but this was no comfort for me, because deep in my heart I knew that something wasn't right. I could really feel a decline and it was making me miserable.
I had chronic back pain. I couldn't hike without having sore knees. I felt that my overall appearance was deflated. Almost like I was succumbing to age and gravity. All this self-love and acceptance talk had made me feel miserable.
This, was the key: it was how I felt about myself. Not someone else’s external opinion on how I looked compared to them or someone else standing next to me. This was MY body and I knew more than anyone what it was capable of. I didn’t want to get skinny, I didn’t want to get bulky, and I didn’t want to become a professional fitness model. What I wanted was to greet the next phase of my life feeling like I was making an effort and find a balanced lifestyle.
AGE IS JUST A NUMBER
Inspired by women twice my age in great shape, I decided it was time to get back onto the training band-wagon. My goal was to get ready for a photo/video shoot in one year.
The first year back to fitness was the hardest: especially the mental struggle of not being able to get through basic things that I used to breeze through. My body had adapted out of training and I felt like age starting to come into play. Progress was a lot slower than I had anticipated.
Was it age? Was this normal? Looking back - it was just a normal consequence of not moving nearly enough for about two years - it had nothing to do with age. Just a LOT, a lot of sitting and not enough movement or beneficial training to off-set the inactivity.
Fast-forward October 2017, I was getting closer to my goal but I was far from the idea I had in my head. Then, the two freak-accidents happened almost back-to-back (you can read more about these in my other article).
These two episodes had one thing in common: I had managed to get out of these fairly unscathed, despite the fact that both could have resulted with a brutal ending. My body and understanding of movement, injury-prevention and athletic research had saved my life.
This was an epiphany for me: not only was my training helping me reach my hugely “first world problem” goal of feeling / looking at my best: it had saved me from tragic injury, or worse. Given that the Body Before Skill approach was an athletic training philosophy at this point - not a training method, it was a powerful moment to experience the results. My body had evolved to do what it was designed to do: protect itself.
December 2017 came, and I felt like I wasn’t ready for my shoot. After having a tantrum (a low-carb diet was to blame!) I felt happy about the decision: I hadn’t reached the goal I had set out myself to achieve, but my year of training had done something so much more powerful.
I was hooked on how far I could take the #BodyBeforeSkill personal journey, so I decided to visit the Stellenbosch University’s Biokinetics Center (medicine through movement).
MY HAPPY PLACE
Here, my inner thirst for knowledge was quenched. I had found my MECCA. I couldn’t believe how much I was learning, going further and deeper in my discoveries than ever before. Every muscle, every movement, was going through the microscope and I was taking a peek.
I discovered a number of niggles and functional defects I had no idea where the main reason I wasn't seeing progress in my training. Every joint in my body (except for my wrists) had an issue with stability, mobility and normal functioning. Even though I had been a Technique Freak since the beginning of time - this was not a technique issue. This went even deeper the #BodyBeforeSkill rabbit hole: I had entered the world of corrective training.
Just after 6 weeks of combined Biokinetics training and Iyengar Yoga (both disciplines which focusing on proprioception, corrective and technical training) - I could already see a transformation.
Once I had fixed the baseline, I also started working with a personal trainer to get me to the finish line: getting me ready to shoot the BBS LONG & STRONG stretching guide. This time, the results were much quicker but it did involve some intensive training over two months (5-7 hours training per week) with the final 3 weeks of training, supplementing and eating like professional fitness models do.
The BBS shoot was a peak: just like a competition or a marathon, it does not represent everyday life. Something to strive for. The week after, you gain a few pounds as your diet goes back to normal, because that’s how normal life is. In fact, in later shoots I decided to approach things very differently because even though I felt great at the shoot - I personally found the discipline required too stressful. Far from self-loving!
I might have arrived in South Africa in 2016 in the worse shape of my life, and I left
having found physical functionality, flexibility and movement. But most of all by taking a full year to research, study and experiment the #BodyBeforeSkill method on my body, it was the start of a whole new life chapter: personally and for my work.
My 1 year personal #BodyBeforeSkill helped me to:
Lose 10.5% body fat (going from 25% to 14.5% - PLEASE NOTE that all bodies are different and react differently to body fat loss. Before deciding to go under an 18% body fat percentage, consult a professional trainer or nutritionist to check that this is suitable for your body type)
I gained 1.5cm in height through improved posture and reducing the "laptop neck" syndrome created extra space and a straighter curve in my spine,